A
Lovely Note from
Beloved Hubby -
shortly after the
birth:
I've only had a
few hours of sleep
for the past few
days, but the gush
of love and adrenalin
keep coming for
my beautiful daughter,
Khadeeja. It was
an amazing few minutes,
never seen anything
like that before.
It seemed like
all heaven and earth
shattered and the
sky parted, all
angels chanted the
name of Allah and
gathered to guard
her way through
the world, and there
she was my beautiful
princess appearing
before my very eyes.
It was truly a miracle
of life. By then
I was gone, blown
away by such an
awesome sight, a
new life has just
begun!
I'm quite an emotional
person, so as you
can imagine, I was
carried away with
all the tears of
joy, speechless
until the she broke
her first cries.
All I can whisper
repeatedly was the
name of Allah, thanking
Him for allowing
me to witness such
surreal event...
she looked so beautiful,
pure and soft. No
words can describe
her.
I always thought
that I could never
handle a fragile
newly-born, but
there I was my fatherhood
instinct just kicked
in, I had her in
my arms and whispered
the name of Allah
through adzan and
iqomah on her ears.
She seemed to study
it very carefully
and looked me sharply
back in the eyes
in return as if
she wanted to know
who called her to
pray upon the God
Almighty ...
My heart is all
for Khadeeja from
that moment ...
It's all clear
to me now for all
the courage and
pain that a mother
must deal with to
deliver that special
person. Astri was
so much in pain,
it just broke my
heart to see her
like that, knowing
that she could never
share it with me
(apart from her
some bone-breaking
squeezes on my arms!!).
But whoever invented
the epidural, he
must've been a genius
(or something),
since she was all
smiles after the
doctor administered
the drug !!
Astri, thank you
for giving me such
a beautiful daughter.
It was the greatest
gift that anyone
could ever ask for.
Love you both forever.
xxx Mas Hendra
xxx
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20 September 2004:
 8.00
pm: Kita nyampe North
Gosford Private Hospital,
sesuai perjanjian yang
dibuat ama
Dr Catt siang harinya
pas check-up terakhir.
8.15 pm:
Dikasih kamar 251 ama
pihak hospital. (foto
kiri diambil sebelon induksi)
10.15 pm: EFM dipasang
buat ngecek kondisi baby.
10.30 pm: Internal exam
dilakukan, ternyata aku
udah 1 cm dilated (bukaan
1).
Trus induction gel dimasukin.
Monitor tetep dipasang
buat ngeliat baby's heart
rate setelah induction.
 11.00
pm: Monitor dilepas trus
aku bobo. Alhamdulillah
bisa bobo pules, kontraksi
belon berasa sama sekali.
Sesekali bangun buat pipis
ama minum. Mas Hendra
ama Ibu ikut nemenin bobo
di kamar.
21 September 2004:
06.00 am: Pas bangun
mo Subuh, ternyata I had
a 'show'. Ini istilah
dipake kalow kita lagi
in labour (or before labour)
trus keluar darah dikit.
Akhirnya aku mandi aja
biar berasa seger ngadepin
labour.
07.00 am: Jalan-jalan
di koridor hospital biar
cepet berasa kontraksi,
masih sepi banget suasana.
08.00 am: Breakfast in
bed. Abis itu aku jalan-jalan
lagi, ditemenin ama Mas
Hendra.
Kali ini jalan-jalan keluar
ke halaman ampe parkiran
karena udaranya udah angetan.
Sempet ketemu ama Dr Catt
di carpark. (foto kanan
lagi jalan-jalan di halaman)
09.30 am: Internal exam
lagi, masih 1 cm dilation.
Wuhuuuu, pantes belon
berasa apa-apa sama sekali.
Trus ama midwive dikasih
gel kedua dengan dosis
lebih tinggi dari semalem.
Monitor dipasang lagi
selama 15 menit.
Trus kita ditinggal lagi.
 10.00
am: Jalan-jalan dilanjutkan
lagi, cuman banyakan di
dalem hospital ajah.
Kadang balik ke kamar,
men gem di laptop ama
Mas Hendra. Kontraksi
udah mulai berasa tuw,
kaya mules pas lagi mens.
Jadi ya masih bisa ketawa-ketawa
deh.
11.30 am: Diminta ama
midwive pindah ke birthing
unit, soalnya Dr Catt
kasih komando aku dikasih
induksi lagi, cuman kali
ini pake syntocinon drip
(aka infus).
Selaen itu artificial
membrane rupturing (aer
ketuban dipecahin) juga
mo dilakukan.
Ya udah deh, pindahan...
Beberapa barang buat labour
kita angkutin ke birthing
unit.
(foto kiri tuw sebelon
ketuban dipecahin).
12.00 pm: Internal exam
lagi sebelon membrane
rupture. Udah 3 cm dilation.
Abis itu aku makan siang
cuman gag boleh makan
padet, jadi makan jelly
ama minum jus ajah.
Abis makan, drip dimasukin
lewat pergelangan tangan
kiri karena aku right-handed.
Naaaaaah, mulai dari
sini niiiiy rasa sakitnya
bow, langsung berasa banget.
gag sopan deh, kirain
bakalan gradually, eeeeeeh,
ini mah kaga. Langsung
aja slonong boy.
Aku udah gag bisa gerak-gerak
lagi deh. Pantat berasa
nancep di sofa... kekeke...
Pokonya the only thing
I could do was sitting-up
right biar labour gag
melambat.
 Makin
berasa stress pas Annette
bilang kalow dripnya saat
itu masih dosis rendah.
Perkiraan bisa ngebantu
bukaan rata-rata 1 cm
per hour. Waks... artinya
aku diharapkan melahirkan
sekitar jam 7 malem...
Ya udah, apa boleh buat,
kuat-kuatin aja diiringi
istighfar terus...
01.00 pm: Setelah 1 jam,
aku gag tahan, minta gas
ke Annette, midwive yang
emang ngebantuin labourku
sejak pagi.
Pas lagi gag kontraksi,
aku pindah dari sofa ke
birthing bed yang udah
disiapin dalam posisi
duduk.
Yang lucu, sebelon kasih
gasnya, Annette bilang,
efek samping gas tuw ntar
aku bisa berasa mabok
kek abis minum wine...
Weks, as if... mas Hendra
langsung bilang 'Well,
she doesnt' drink' maksudnya
gimana ngebayanginnya
gitu looooo..
01.15 pm: Ternyata emang
bener sodara-sodara...
Walowpun aku gag pernah
minum wine, cuman bisa
deh ngebayanginnya.. Wuiiiih,
baru 3 kali breath-in
breath-out, langsung deh
berasa terbaaaaang...
kekeke.. :D
Ngantuuuuuk banget, mata
gag bisa ngebuka deh.
Kata Mas Hendra tampangku
saat itu emang konyol
banget... wekekeke.. :p
(foto kanan tuw aku lagi
breathing-in the gas).
 01.30
pm: Setelah 6 kali niup
gas, akunya gag kuat...
Gasnya udah gag mempan
lagi, dan ujung-ujungnya
aku muntah...
Belepotan dah pokonya
yang namanya birthing
gown itu. Trus ama Annette
ditawarin hot shower.
Karena efek samping gas,
aku gag kuat berdiri,
jadi hot showernya sambil
duduk di kursi, ngebelakangin
shower biar punggungku
kena aer angetnya. Enak
beneeeeeeeeerrrr.. Berasa
dipijit-pijit... :D
Mas Hendra nemenin aku
terus deh pokonya, ampe
jeans dia basah semua...
hihihiiiy.. :D
01.45 pm: Hot shower
udah mulai gag mempan
juga. Sakit makin melilit
dan heboh. Akhirnya aku
minta ke Mas Hendra bilangin
ke Annette buat epidural.
Ama Annette langsung arrange
anaesthetist.
02.00 pm: Internal exam
dilakuin lagi sebelon
epidural. Ternyata oh
ternyataaaaa... Aku udah
bukaan 8, jadi 5 cm dilation
had been happening in
the past 2 hours. Pantes
aja sakitnyaaaaaa... :D
Sedikit lega juga soalnya
itu artinya gag lama lagi
aku fully dilated... :)
02.15 pm: Dr Warman yang
mo nyuntikin epidural
dateng juga.
02.30 pm: Epidural mulai
disuntikin. (foto kiri
atas). Tadinya aku pikir
efeknya mulei berasa 15
menit kemudian, eh ternyata
tidak looooh...
Dalam itungan 2 menit
kali, langsung deh rasa
sakit itu Alhamdulillah
lenyap nyap nyaaaap...
:)
Aku yang tadinya merem
mulu, saat itu akhirnya
bisa juga ngebuka mata
dan senyum...
Bayangkan, I was smiling
when I was 8 cm dilated..
hihihiiiy.. :D Satu-satunya
efek samping epidural
yang aku rasain cuman
kedinginan ajah. Ama Mas
Hendra langsung diambilin
hot blanket dari linen
cupboard. Sementara itu
Dr Warman dan Annette
ngawasin baby heart ratenya.
Eeeeeh, ko aga-aga drop
yaaaaah... Emang sih baby
heart ratenya ada di angka
145-155 bpm, tapi kadang-kadang
bisa merosot ampe 66 bpm
(itu yang terendah yang
sempet kerekam).
Langsung Dr Catt ditelpon,
diminta dateng segera.
Dari percakapan antara
Dr Warman dan Annette
abis ngobrol ama Dr Catt,
kalow emang heart ratenya
drop terus, bisa-bisa
C-Section (Caesarean)
harus dijalankeun. Dalem
hati berdoa, duuuh, mudah-mudahan
gag papa deeeeh...
Sambil mataku melotot
mulu ngawasin monitor.
Tiap drop rasanya gimanaaaa
gituw.
 02.45
pm: Internal exam dilakukan
lagi, Alhamdulillah...
ternyata aku udah 10 cm
dilated aka udah siap
untuk melahirkan... :D
Tinggal tunggu keputusan
Dr Catt ajah.
02.55 pm: Dr Catt dateng
juga. Dia bilang, kemungkinan
besar dropnya heart rate
karena si bub kelilit
umbilical cord. Dia bilang
gag perlu Caesarean. Cuman
perlu dibantu vacuum ajah
supaya kepalanya cepet
keluar.
03.00 pm: Finally, diiringi
aba-aba dari Annette dan
Dr Catt, aku ambil nafas
dalem-dalem..
Dan Alhamdulillah, dengan
satu kali big push, tepat
pukul 03.02 pm waktu Sydney,
putri kami, Khadeeja Nugraha
menyapa dunia... :)
Kita berdua bener-bener
gag bisa nahan nangis..
Rasanya terharu banget
ama kebesaran Allah SWT...
:)
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